Sunday, June 08, 2008

Rollercoaster

Well, it feels like forever and 6 weeks since the last time I posted to the blog. I've been appallingly flat out and slack.

My dad's 60th birthday party was a blast. I had the best time with my cousins. It is so good to have that connection - and scary to see how much genes will out. He was really happy with the music that I put together for him - really enjoyed it. We got a thank you letter from him in the mail on Friday - it really hurt that he signed it Regards. I feel sad that he can't admit to loving us.

My first week of the public speaking course went really well. I've never felt so comfortable standing up in front of complete strangers and speaking. I'm really looking forward to next week.

I'm so worried about my brother. He's had problems with alcohol for a long time, but it seems to be getting worse. I discovered yesterday that wines I've had cellared have gone missing. I'm devastated that he has broken my trust like this, and so worried and frustrated. He is the only one who can change his life. I can't do it for him, but it is breaking my heart to watch him throw his life away on the way to rock bottom.

I've been given a promotion at work. I'm really excited about it, as it gives me the development opportunities I've needed, as well as some challenges to keep my brain happy. That, and getting the chance to learn how to be a good manager.

We've had a pretty big scare with my stepfather's health lately. About 10 days ago I was having dinner with 2 of my best friends when my very drunk and slurry brother called me to tell me that our stepfather was being rushed to hospital with chest pains. Who knew I could get across town in 20 minutes legally. He was admitted into the cardio ward and was going to undergo a lot of tests the next day. I think my highlight was seeing my stepbrother threaten to have him declared mentally incompetent if he kept refusing the angiogram. Luckily he passed the angiogram with flying colours, so now he is running a gamut of other health tests to see what could have caused it. I'm not ready to lose someone I love. That 36 hours scared me. Badly. I've been telling lots of people I love them lately.

8 comments:

Donnetta Lee said...

Sorry to hear that step-dad had such a rough time. It does make you appreciate those you love when these close calls happen. Also sorry about brother. My dad was a chronic alcoholic who died too young with alcohol related problems. On a brighter note, it makes us thankful for who we are and the paths we have chosen. Don't hate brother-keep him in your prayers even if you have to use tough love. Best to you.
Donnetta

Janie said...

It's good you appreciate them and enjoy the time you have with them now.

Prayers your way!

Ab said...

hey, im sure yr bro doesn mean to take yr trust lightly.. its just that some addictions grow beyond your ctrl.... just be nice to him and counsel (if he listens to you)

and abt dad's, well, im not even commenting... thats better!

MyUtopia said...

I loved my speech class in college. I had all A's on my speeches, but got a B for the class because I didn't do well on the written exam.

In_spired said...

this is me:

I've kept up my posting but it's been "forever and 6 weeks" since I've visited blogs. I hope my life slows down just a little (for a while) I need a rest.

I'm so glad you're enjoying the public speaking course! You will benefit from it the rest of your life...and, you can't say that about many things.

I know your heartache about your brother. My dad was an alcoholic when I was a young child. He finally got help (or decided that he wanted help) after I was grown and married. But I still carry emotional scars from those young years. I think that's the reason I spend so much time in children's ministry...trying to ease the burdens that some of these kids carry.

Thanks for an insightful post.

jellyhead said...

I've been wondering how things were with you. I'm sorry there have been quite a few sad or stressful things going on.

It's good to hear you are making the best of a tricky time by showing affection to your loved ones. After all, surely love is the reason for being.

Hugs to you,
XO Jelly

Mike M said...

Hope dad is ok

poemsnpuja said...

few people are lucky enough to tell those you love how much you do...its most of the time too late by the time we realise.
hope your dad is okay