Good day, bad day

A day of ups and downs. Today has been my second day in a row off work - I started off yesterday with a pretty vile migraine, and today, I was just so drained, I just needed to sleep. Some of it was probably emotional too, after the whole pregnancy test thing. So I slept, and slept, and slept, and then tried to get the boy to come over after he finished work. Didn't happen - he is so good with the sweet words - wants me to look after myself, wishes that he lived closer so he could look after me, poor angel, I wish you were feeling better, but when it really counts, and I just want the time with him, just for a hug, he has other stuff that he needs to do. I know that he has a pretty messed up family/household situation, but I think that I deserve a little bit of time too. I'm starting to wonder how much of it comes down to me and deserving love - back to yesterday's comments.