Thursday, March 01, 2007

All by myself

Not really, but I feel a bit like it at the moment.

On Sunday my boy is heading overseas without me. I know it is only for 10 days, and I know he really needs the break, and he is really looking forward to going, but at the same time, I'm sad that he is going without me, and just slightly jealous that he is going off to have experiences I won't be sharing. I trust him, and know that things will be good, but I'm still going to miss him.

I've made plans for Sunday afternoon - a girly day watching Singing in the Rain with 2 of my fave friends who make me laugh til I cry every time I see them. Displacement activity - probably, but I know I'll have fun with them.

I'm sad, because I do wish I was going, but at the same time, I don't have the time off work, and it isn't a trip I really want to do. I know I'm being really contrary, but right now that is me. I want him to have a good time, but not such a good time that he doesn't have time to miss me. Someone say egocentric and self obsessed? Sometimes, yes.

He will be home in 2 weeks. That means he is nearly back already. Really need to get over myself.

1 comment:

Jellyhead said...

Oh, I can understand. You want them to enjoy themselves YET still miss you awfully! (to ensure you remain firmly planted in their affections!)

It'll have to be a fortnight of all the foods you love and he hates, all the DVDs he would never want to watch, and catching up with friends you have been meaning to see. Oh, and blogging lots so I can comment and cheer you up!

XO
Jelly